anjani siddhartha

Singing to my imaginary friends in my car, on
a lonely California road in the middle of the night.

laying down in bed reflecting on all the 
lost loves in my life.
what went wrong? 
I thought all my actions were right…

With all the loneliness,
is it possible to survive?

What will Buddha said if he saw my plight?

He will hug me, like Ram hugged Hanuman,
and we will both laugh:
“Anjani…so wise, what game is she
playing now in this material life?”

I just saw in Google news today,
another great man died…
all accomplishments a memory of the past.

Also read about Valeria, the human Barbie
that comes from venus and remember
her past lives…welcome to earth! your
beauty brings light.

I try to forget not by drinking wine,
Get lost in an unexpected caress,
a tight grip on my body and few love
bites.

The grandeur of living I find in the small
things at hand…the tiniest details, like a
baby hummingbird crying for his mom to
bring him food, with closed eyes.

But it made me sad when I saw the same
baby hummi eaten by hungry ants…it just broke
my heart…life is so cruel on this land.

Bones grow weaker with many moons and suns,
The most beautiful models of years gone by, are
dust now or have a wrinkled butt.

They said Buddha saw old age, disease and death
and grew tired of smiles and dance…
it was the beginning of his quest to search “inside”…
I am on the same path…

I do not deny physical life,
but now I KNOW
what is really “behind”…

anji
march 5, 2014

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ANJANI’S MANIFESTO
(public declaration of the intentions, motives, or views of anjani)

I KNOW for certain (thru my out of body experiences, past and future life recalls)
of my real multi-dimensional and eternal nature and
know my time is limited to experience this particular physical body form on this sector of the multiverse, therefore:

1. Live a simple life.
less clutter, less people in my contacts. less people to text with.
(do not give my number to just anyone that asks)

2.Follow not religion or belief system, guide myself by my
own spiritual realizations. (not book, not guru, not temple).

EXCEPTIONS: the Ashtavakra Gita, the Lankavatara Sutra
and Hanumanji…the 3 loves of my life…

3. Keep up the exercise, dance, sleep well (7 hours), eat basic food in small quantity.

4. Share my body only with those that I feel an strong attraction to…

5. Cut my “online” time to the bare essentials.

6. Do not be afraid to say “NO” even if it offends others.

7.Try as possible to not depend on others.

8.Be truth and honest to others but specially with myself.

9. Better alone than surrounded by energy and time wasters.

10. I don’t need drugs/booze to feel “good”.

11. My political views look to the left, but never to the extreme.

12. Follow my own instincts.

13. Be myself, express myself at all times without regard for “acceptance” by others,
never be a fake. (dress , act according to my nature.)

14. Do not live in the past. Create my life moment to moment….be spontaneous.

15. Do not do work that doesn’t align with my creative self-expression that is innate
in my artistic, sensual and spiritual nature.

16. The journey is my destination….stop and smell the flowers, look at hummingbirds
 at the stars, the sun, the moon.
 (Be in the moment: Enjoy what I eat, my cup of coffee, my cigar… with all senses.)

17. Unlearn what has been taught to me by teachers, parents, priests, books, tv, internet…

18.If I don’t like a situation in my life, change my vibration by choosing a new belief and
ACTING in a new more positive way that will bring a positive result.

19. Do not “search” for happiness, just live in harmony and at peace with myself.
     (Make better choices towards this end, and stop “the drama” )

20.Watch the “world cup” every four years.

21.Do not force myself to do things I don’t enjoy, or be in a place I don’t like or
around people I am not comfortable with.

22. Organize my finances, my living space.

23. Dot not get discouraged by defeat, by bad experiences…just say “so what! “
and start anew.

Add or delete items from this manifesto as I see fits me for a better way to
live my life to the fullest on earth and beyond…

Anjani, feb. 20/14

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I SAW DEATH

I saw death….once again,
but this time she said “not today”.
I was ready to go to my next stage,
I kept my face clean just in case….

Mind was spinning, golden electric
threads with more beauty than a spider’s web.

Words and faces didn’t made any sense,
for moments I was afraid.
All was made of mind !
just as Gautama said.

Time…there was none…a deep silence instead.

Who was Anjani but a memory of yesterday.
There was not ending,
a new beginning waited ahead.

Anjani

feb. 18, 2014

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anjani

Ha! living in this dichotomy …
what a divine joke is this ?
on one hand I hold eternity,
while on the other, body will
know defeat.

Living in two worlds is not easy as it seems.

All I can do is live life as “I” seem fit.
Using my six senses to the extreme.
why deny myself the joy of
orgasmic delight and Ice cream ?

I keep on loving, winning and losing,
walking thru life
as if strolling in a dream…

Friends come as they go,
same with lovers
that just want to escape their loneliness…
and it is fine with me.

I astral travel to many places, most
will not believe… it is just my other
reality.

I live in two worlds, and enjoy pleasuring
myself in each.

anjani

Feb. 7 /2014