Standing and waiting for the one that never comes…

I can hear his footsteps behind me,

but when I look no one is there.

Been waiting for so long, a few lifetimes it seems,

I will not be here when he decides to show.

Do not take my tears as a sign of weakness,

they just proof that I am still human.

Earth is another word for pain:

behind the laughter of a party there is

the smell of death…

Do not try to fool me with imaginary 

heavens and hells.

leave those to scared children…

my only fear is losing you again.

Oh well, you decided not to come,

I have nothing else to say….

Anji

Jan. 2014